Whose Life Is It Anyway? Ramblings on life, yoga, romance, money, sex, life, yoga, art, music, life and life.
What's in a Moment?
Someone once told me that all we have are a series of moments and when strung together they make up a life; and that each moment has within it the possibility to change everything. I have been given the opportunity to see this many times in my life. Cataclysmic life shifts or simple rumbles have come and in one single instant shifted everything I thought I was so delicately weaving into the design of "my" future.
We have seen the fragility of life time and again this very year. A strange weather pattern, a misguided child or financial leaders that have lost their way — suddenly our lives are changed forever. One could think, what is the point of planning, designing or desiring, we have no real control? I have shared so much of my story with you over these years hoping that in the honesty you might see yourself in my stories and together we can gain a glimmer of understanding into how fragile and beautiful it is to be human. I'd like to share a bit more of how I see the enigmatic experience of not just living– but living in life's embrace.
I will confess I am a woman who needs a plan. I plan and dream endlessly. I exhaust those around me with my "new ideas". I am often humbled by life and yet can truthful say I have always gotten what I wanted — without fail. Ironically, it rarely looked like my more Hollywood fantasy — Tall, dark, handsome, yet the essence came through one hundred percent. The more clear my intentions the easier it was manifest what I wanted from life. If there was no doubt, fear or gripping desire, if my intentions where not "I want a million dollars", but instead of a higher vibration, "I want to do good work and serve many", it came to me seamlessly. The times that I kept my eyes and heart open I could reach and embrace each experience as if I had chosen it — because I had. That would include both the light and the dark. There were many times I had clearly delivered myself into the arms of darkness because there was something my soul still needed to learn. I am forever grateful for those times and certainly hope they come with a lighter stick next time around!
If Paula's story resonated with you and you would like to start 2013 with self reflection, check out our Winter Urban Silent Retreat at Reflections Studio on Jan 5th and 6th. No better way to learn about thyself than in silence. Shhhh…..